So like I said earlier H texted me about a dream he had..started texting back and forth about the dream and possible meaning.
I told him I felt like he hasn't texted me like this since OW has been here. He said it wasn't true, that we just texted about his job yesterday. I said but you haven't texted about little things.
His response:I didn't know you didn't mind receiving my silly updates. Now that I know, I'll pester you more often.
I told him I didn't mind but I felt like every convo we have turns negative, seems like I'm nagging.
He said I wasn't being negative now but we have had some mean and negative conversations
I said probably the reason why was because we are both hurting (or non-hurt as he has said about himself)...that this was something for us to work on...can't change the past but can move ahead to a positive,healthy,fulfilled relationship
His response was "Hm." *sigh*
Not sure how to take this...turned convo back to other things...
After I realize I start getting a panicky feeling because I just feel like I have no control...If I stop convo like this, I feel like I really will loose him...If I continue on, am I letting him "have his cake...?"....
