Met with W this past Sunday...she is still intent on D. Said that she didn't do anything with the D since it was holiday time, but that she has not and will not change her mind. She has the papers filled out and just needs to submit to attorney.
Christmas was tough as was New Year's. One phone call from her on Christmas morning, which lasted about 10mins. On Sunday, she said the only reason she called was because the week prior she told me she would and she didn't want to be a liar...so she called out of obligation on Christmas. No contact over New Years. Nothing from her family or from SD.
When I was over there on Sunday, I said I missed her and I loved her. Said that I respect her decision to Divorce, but that I strongly believed we could work through it. She shook her head and said her heart was no longer in it. That she wasn't going back. I said it wasn't about going back but moving forward. Talked about some articles that I've read in regards to couples who have made it through affairs. She just said she would never trust me again and it was over.
She did say a couple times that she has moments where she is sad and moments where she hates my guts. That if she had an affair on me, I would want a divorce too and not want to try.
There was no arguing as we talked. It was more her stating she was moving forward with the D.
I've been very sad since Sunday. Wishing there was something I could say or do. Not sure where to go from here. Just wait for the papers, I guess. Seems like I should be doing something more for the M and for W. But it seems like it is just giving up to do nothing.
