Thanks labug. Good insight. On the surface I don't. Want what's happening to happen. I can't. Control it though. Might be a feeling of loss of control. In fact now that I say that I am sure its part of the equation. Have not let on tho.

W just came over to take D16 to doc. Sudden onset cold/flu with fever. W didn't talk with me about this at all. But, i did send a text to her since she waited in the driveway again just giving d16 stats with illness over the past 24. Hours. That way she can relay to doc.

D13 is home now. Kids have snow day. I feel short with d13 and recognized it quickly and took my own corrective action to stop myself from being curt with her. Not her fault she's. Getting pulled away so much.


me: 47, W:49
M 16.5 years
T 17 years
Three kids - D17,D14, S13
Heart 2 heart about M 11/8/13
Bomb drop 11/29/13
W moved out 12/5/13
I Retained L 2/20/14
D filed 3/17/14