I just read a story about how sometimes when telling a story, we change the details to portray a better outcome and that this helps us to deal with the painful/stressful situation we are talking about...sometimes I feel like I do that with my situation just to make the outcome fit to what I want...making my M work.
I've posted about things H has said that make me hopeful that maybe he thinks about the M but then I think, do I post about what he says/does against the M?
-He says he wants D but is just waiting for me to accept it
-He says he doesn't want to hurt me anymore. States he knows I wasn't a good man for him and he's not the one to make me happy
-He has OW who is staying with him for month while she is on break from grad school...he says they have a lot in common despite 15 year age difference (H39/OW24).
-H says he doesn't think he will ever get married again. States marrying and kids isn't even on the table with OW and that she knows he doesn't want to marry or have more kids
-H states that no R lasts forever (already planning for R to end with OW???)
Convos with my MIL (who is staying with H and OW right now while visiting) as send me mixed messages...She says things like:
-first states that H does seem happy with OW but then turns around and says she doesn't see happiness reflected in his eyes
-States she knows H still loves me
-Knows H REALLY misses the kids
-Says H told her he didn't know why I wasn't attracted to my male co-worker
-H decided not to tell kids about OW because I didn't want him to (I actually told him to decide what he wanted to do and I would go with whatever he choose.He didn't make a decision during that convo, told me he would get back to me. Then on Chrismas Eve,H texted the he and his mom would just come over the next day. H left OW at his house from 8AM to 6PM (he did go home for an hour) on Christmas)
-MIL tells me to hang in there but then phrases it as she knows I will find someone else
-MIL tells me that OW won't be back until March so I have between now and then to "do what I have to" but when I ask if she thinks it would even be worth me trying she gets wishy-washy
