One final thought this morning. At the end of the dr and db and the sec starved marriage MWD does say that sometimes in spite of your best efforts things don't. Work out that you stay married to the person. I understand that sometimes its and act of grace and kindness to just let go. I just don't know when that time will come in my case but I will continue to be kind thoughtful and courteous to W as much as possible. I am letting go more emotionally today. Maybe I won't. Feel like it tommorrow. Not sure. I am typing this on my kindle sonolease pardon any typos.
I do know these things...if I am to be married or in a long term R again I want someone who is emotionally available. I seem to pick people who are broken andy need me. Then I feel good by helping. That ismy big 180 in all of this. Either she decides to stay and engaged me this way (which is a lo g shot) or I must endevour to be my best Paul and if I want a mate look for people who really can engage me. Someone that doesn't need me they just want me. Thanks for listening. Am I getting It..?
me: 47, W:49 M 16.5 years T 17 years Three kids - D17,D14, S13 Heart 2 heart about M 11/8/13 Bomb drop 11/29/13 W moved out 12/5/13 I Retained L 2/20/14 D filed 3/17/14
