I feel ya with the holidays being so tough. I think everyone here has that same issue. Something you said here made me think about something I heard just yesterday. I know this is easier said than done, but in regards to your concern over what the next year brings, I heard that we either learn lessons in life from a place of fear/pain or a place of love...and that once we realize this, it is within our power to choose which place we are going to learn from. Don't you think you have given the control over your happiness over to other people for too long now? Is it perhaps time to take the power back, say, from the WAW friends who "chose sides" and are now controlling YOUR emotions?? CHOOSE that this is going to be a miraculous year in which you learn from a place of peace. Stop blaming others and start living for you! Please read Marianne Williamson's book, A Return To Love. This is where you will find info on how to choose love over fear and joy over pain. She also says that a miracle can only happen when we shift our perspective from one of fear TO one of love. Watch the link below. This helps me so maybe it will help you too Take care!
Take care! 
