Why do you count the minutes since you last had sex? I hope you'll forgive my curiosity but it seems almost like you find some pleasure in that very big number.

I am nowhere near 17 years, and hope it doesn't end up being that long, or maybe it will be forever, who knows. But I put it out of my mind and I don't think about it. I can tell you within plus or minus six months but can't be sure of the date or the year without going back over my journals, which I don't do.

Is keeping track of it on your stopwatch giving you a sense of pride in your sacrifice, or is it needlessly torturing yourself?

I'm wondering if I'm weird or, well, how come we have such different opinions about focusing on painful things.

Adinva 51, S20, S18
M24 total
6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out
9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50
5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend
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Happiness is a warm puppy.