I feel your pain in this dude. I don't know how to separate hope and expectations either. I feel like if you successfully detach, in doing so, your spouse becomes just another friend. If you get to that point, you may still love her but are you 'in love with her?' Like you said, the roles get reversed.
Anyway, I'm on a tear with the rant posts today. Your message really resonated with me though because I have been getting sucked back in since July because for me hope is a trap I always step in. Sorry to hear your news though
Me:38 W:39 No Children BD: 5/13 EA/PA Confirmed: 7/13 W Moved out 12/13