I can totally relate to this. I’ve been doing the same thing as RL recently, rewriting the history. I almost convinced myself that H didn’t really love me that much, until I found the old cards and post cards from him, where he expressed his love and said that he could not wait to get home to see me. It brought up the memories, I cried and realized that he actually did love me. My next thought was “what happened?” It is just too painful, still. This is why, I think, I’ve been trying to overwrite the history to make it easier to move on.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
