I'm angry he didn't contact the kids on New Year's Day. I'm angry that the kids don't even miss him. I'm angry that they expect him to let them down. I'm angry that my kids are sad and he doesn't know. That they are having nightmares, sleep walking, crying etc and he has no clue. Silly silly man. I know this is all so much more complicated in his head than I could ever imagine but there is a huge part of me that just wants him to wake up and see what he's missing. My two kids are worth more than anything he could possibly be getting elsewhere. I cant even fathom what more than them he could ever want or need.......
CC - I am so sad for your children and for you. They are so little and really just dont understand. I have been dealing with the same anger for the past few days. On NYE, my S4 told me "Dont worry if daddy if not there tonight, I will be the daddy. I am strong, tall and have a shirt just like him. I will be the daddy and take care of you and S3." It broke my heart into a million pieces. A four year old should not have to worry about protecting their family and filling their daddies shoes. Instead of being with his children, H was at a hotel NYE party with his single guy friends drinking the night away and doing who knows what else.
It makes me so angry and so sad to see so many children on this forums suffering. They are suffering and the WAS has no idea. My H is convinced that they will be just fine. Wait until they are old enough to know that our Hs were actually doing when they checked out and where never there.
