For those of us who are long-distance or rarely see our partners, it is difficult to tell if any of these sort of small attempts are real efforts to reconnect.
Hi Portia. Happy New Year.
It seems the style you are writing in here is more like a journalist or scientist objectively journalling your feelings and thoughts. I think it's important as many of us do not do that and wonder how others handle these events.
One thing that has stood out for me in all of this when faced with that same question: do I want to reconnect with my ex? I've thought the same with my ex over time. Right after she got married I received all kinds of email and correspondence from her. My sense was that she was trying to connect in some way (not necessarily good, but..). She seemed to be reconciling her feelings from the past several years at the time. She still does seem to be doing that. I noticed.
But for me, it came down to what I wanted out of an interaction with her or anyone for that matter. That was hard for me because I'm normally a very giving person.
At some point, you may have to decide what it is you need/want/will accept from your ex as well. It may no longer be about what he is trying to do, but rather what you are willing to accept from anyone in that regard.
Something to consider at least.
Peace, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
