this jerk doesn't call- i don't even really want to pick up- but i want to know he tried. i'd like to have thought that i was in his life enough that a stinkin ten minute phone call would occur to him.
It says so much. It is how I feel as well. I may not be ready to talk to him and often don't feel like talking because it is all so awkward, but damnabbit, I liked to know he tried. And a phone call or a text does not seem like too much trouble.
I am pulling further and further away from him. Too much time has passed. Touch and goes are crumbs and are no longer enough. I wonder if he thinks they are? I noticed in his last texts he has called me "friend" but are we really? With friends like that...
I need to know he is trying or this is truly done. Really, I am almost truly done. Can't really figure out why I am not done already biut there you have it.
Heather, we do the best we can think of in the circumstances. There is a part of me that wishes I would have punched him in the face, called him a lousy something or another and booted him completely out of my life at the very beginning. If I thought he cared about how he treated me, I might tell him. Problem is that I still do not think he cares all that much. And why unburden myself to someone who just does not care? I love that you are trusting yourself, you should. I could learn a thing or two from you.
