Today was horrible. I broke down on front of H. I have not done that in months. It was horrible and I could not stop myself. Despite telling myself to have no expectations after ML last week and going out with H, H's return to his new single life crushed me. Need to regroup tomorrow. I am sure that it will take weeks to recover from the damage caused tonight. H will definitely be retreating big time.
I'm sorry you feel so down but it happens, we all do those things. In the big picture, it's a blip. Let it go.
And you can do that, don't keep torturing yourself with reliving it.
Sometimes when we have those really down times, it's because we're about to uncover a new strength or realization within us. Some call it peeling the onion.
I compare it to our kids when they're really young and having developmental milestones one after the other. My kids would always get a little cranky for a day or so and I'd wonder "What??"
The next day they would turn over for the first time, or sit or whatever ...
Hang in there, you're OK. You will get through this.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
