Aiming higher than a glow worm for 2014

[Not Quitting]

I had an interesting text from H last night. "I'm in limbo at the moment.... Seriously thinking of going back to the world and the job"

He's used the second part of that text a few times before and I don't believe it any more now than any other time. It's his way of saying that he's thinking about go back to the UK and taking the job offer he supposedly has there - and I highly doubt the job offer since I'm sure the Army has enough younger recruits that they don't need a 50-year old with a bad heart. It would be my guess that the OW has dumped him.

Even if she has, that doesn't change anything. I haven't responded to the text yet, and when I do my response is going to be "It's your decision. You chose not to be part of my life so I no longer have any input in yours".

If this had happened a month or so ago, maybe things would have been different. Back then, the door was still wide open. I've come to realize in that time that I have a lot to offer someone without changing to please them, and that while having a man in my life would be a bonus - a very nice bonus mind you - it is not a necessity. Today, that door is closed and double locked. I'm moving on and the only part H is going to play in my life is when it comes to co-parenting our son.

And that reminds me, time to change my signature again. S13 turns 14 today. I've taken the day off work to spend it with him. We're meeting up with H tonight for dinner. H initially wasn't too thrilled that our son invited my dad to come to dinner with us, but I reminded him that it is our son's day and it's his decision and then added that I would pay for my dad's dinner if it was that big of a deal.