I read your sitch. We have quite a bit in common. I am 10 years older than my H. 40/50. And on my second trip. We did have a lot of good times in that last 7 years but here we are again..
I really think it is over this time. I feel different this time. I started out panicked and wanted to fix it but I am starting to see the reality of H drinking and cheating and I really need to move on. I think I want it to work because I am afraid of being alone, a failure and finances. Oh, yes he definitely had an EA I saw all the texts. I don't he is still having one but don't know for sure. Or care anymore.
H wrote me a letter saying he was sorry about all the pain, mean things he did or said to me. He said that he is sorry for his beliefs that you don't have to work on a marriage. Said he must have been young and dumb. Sorry he doesn't want to work on our marriage, he is just over it and done. The strange thing is he has told no one about leaving. His family knows because I told them. My family doesn't just because I don't want to deal with it right now. I have friends that do.
H wants to be friend for the kids sake. I said (my bad) that we couldn't be friends in our marriage I don't see how we can be friends for them. All he ever cared about was spending time with his friends. I'd ask to do something and he'd say Oh, I am going to so and so's.... I told him I was getting an attorney and we could communicate that way. Since he wants to text and takes for ever to reply. Said he doesn't feel the need or need to text me back right away. When he decides to he said he will.....basically he does it on purpose to push my buttons.
I deserve better, life is too short and I need to spend time with my kids and move on.
H is mad because I asked him to get all his stuff out of the house and off the property. We have 3 acres. H said he doesn't have a place to take the stuff outside. Mean me said not my problem. You left so you need to take your stuff... Guess I am a little mad today. I really need to be mad so I can get over him. If I don't remind myself of the bad the sad feelings move in. Last time I tried to be accommodating and cheerful. I just don't want to this time. I really think I am done this time.
Wow, glad I got all of that out, ha ha..
M15 T19 D13 S13 BD Affair 9/13 S 11/13 D started 6/14.. dropped court date 10/14 H attorney can't get it together. Still with long distance ow. Still hates me.
