Thanks for the reply. My husband has not been officialy diagnosed with PTSD, but I have been doing some research and I think he has many of the symptoms. He has been talking to a chaplain but not a professional. Alot of guys in the military are afraid that a diagnosis will go on their record. It's frustrating. Christmas Eve was great. He came over, spent family time, watched movies. It was almost like a family again. He stayed the night and helped put out gifts for kids. It all went bad after present opening on Christmas Day. While he was making breakfast I checked our phone account and saw where he texted possible other woman on xmas Eve. I know Im not supposed to say anything but I couldn't help it. We argued and he left. Spent the rest of Christmas with my kids, alone and devastated. I had a complete breakdown....begging him to come home, etc. He then left to go to California for 2 weeks to see family and "friends". He is still there now. Trying to go dark but texted Happy New Year on New Years Eve. No response. He did call home and speak with kids, but not me. It's so hard to be erased from someone's life. Its like we never existed. Trying to go dark again and see what happens when he comes back. Our youngest sons birthday is coming up. Still hoping for things to work out.
