Well, I made it through New Year's Eve on my own. As it turns out, it is good I didn't make plans to go out. I have been battling a cold for about a week and now I have laryngitis. Can hardly talk! I had to substitute soup for my "favorite" dinner and didn't make it to midnight (thought rest was the better decision), but I did enjoy the wine. Alcohol isn't recommended for laryngitis, but I couldn't pass it up.
H texted in the beginning of the day that he wasn't really enjoying his trip and wished he had put more thought into it. Said he was sharing a room with his buddy and didn't like it.
Later he texted that he partied from 7pm til 3am. At first he said he had a few too many drinks, then several hours later when I asked how bad his hangover was, he said he didn't drink much ... only 7 beers all night. Huh?
He said the party wasn't great but it was okay. Somehow I don't think he would tell me if he had a great time.
I received news around 3pm from my d that my gd14 had been shot with an arrow by the girl next door. Fortunately, the arrow went through her upper arm and after doctor's removed it, they let her go home from the hospital.
The whole incident certainly gave me a lot to reflect on last night. We could have so easily lost one of our grandkids (we call them "kidlets"). It was really the kind of eye-opener that makes you realize how much you have in life to be thankful for. I realized that I may not have everything I want in life, but what I do have is pretty awesome.
I'm looking forward to the new year and continuing to work on me. At the moment, I am a little frustrated. As far as R goes, I feel like we are in some weird holding pattern. Not moving forward, not falling back. It is so hard not to want to push but it is equally hard to just keep on doing the same day after day. I feel like H has what he wants at the moment. His life over there, living the way he wants (don't know if OW is still in the picture or not) and everything calm over here. I feel this need to remind him somehow that this life is not acceptable to me, but am trying to just sit back and wait. So tough!
In the meantime, I'm going to tape a big note on my bathroom mirror - Count Your Blessings! That is my New Year's Resolution - to remember that my life is really pretty awesome - whether H is in it or not!
Wishing everyone a happy new year and hopes for a better year than the last.
2T2M
Me: 59 and holding H: :53 Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown M: 19 T: 23 BD: 9-23-2013
