The following week I went out and was at my male friends house watching a movie.H sent me a facebook message that said my status showed where I was and that he saw I "completed my journey" (meaning that I slept with him). I told him all we were doing was watching a movie and for him to go to sleep. He said for me to be safe. In the AM he asked if I wasn't attracted to my male co-worker and that he just wanted me to be happy and find love because he knew that he wasn't the one who could do this for me and he thought that he was the reason that I don't show affection. I told him that I'm the reason I don't show affection, not him or anyone else and that I knew he worried about me and that I would figure things out for myself in time.
Then the following week (Thanksgiving week),I texted him and asked him if he could watch the girls that Wednesday (which is his day w/them). He said it wouldn't be a good idea for them to stay at his house because he had a house guest (his "friend" that he took to grad school). I called him and started in on him about our relationship and us and our history, etc. I said that I thought I knew what the problem was...That he was still in love with me but he didn't think I was in love with him. He said "and what if it is?" I said I didn't know. I asked "well is it?" and he said "maybe" but that it was too late. I told him it was never too late. We ended the conversation after that because we just go round and round and never get anywhere. He did come see the girls for a while that night and I ended up going out because my friend watched the kids. My H put a message on FB that night that he was deactivating his account to "save his sanity."
