Haven't been on here in quite awhile. Thought I was doing ok with my situation but seems like I'm back at square one.
I had resolved myself to the fact that H did not want to work on the marriage and that it was time to move forward. Went out a couple of times with a group of friends (one who is a male co-worker mentioned above). I admit I find him a little attractive but I am still in love with H. Anyway...anytime I would go out, H would text me being safe and who was I with, etc...Made me start thinking that H might still have feelings for me. Then at the end of Aug H told me his "friend" (who I suspect he left me for) was moving for grad school and he was taking her. When I asked him the nature of the relationship he would only say they were friends. I asked him not to take her but he did anyway.
I continued to try and move forward with my life.In September, I again went out and H was texting me (I suspect anytime he is texting me he has been drinking). He was saying that he wanted me to be safe. I told him I was going to go over to see him but then said I was just going to go home because it was late. He said he wanted to see me so I went. Ended spending the night with him. In the AM he asked now what? I said that I felt he had problems (depression,unhappy w/himself and career,problem with drinking). I said that with him being this way there could be no Us. He said so then what. I said I guess we end this and get a divorce. We talked about going about this and I did seem at peace with this decision.
Didn't talk again about it though until Nov 19-he sent me an e-mail that he researched what we needed to file. I was sad and told him I would look at the info but never did because it's really not what I want.
