I have decided to go to IC this Thursday. Something my wife mentioned i could use some of several months ago. I this particular, I agree. Have some family/self esteem/codependency issues i could use some help on. Now i will get some extra bang for my buck as i am sure the separation will be heavily discussed!

I told my wife I was going around 10pm. Asked for her thoughts/outside opinion...just to see if it meshed with my ideas. In addition, it was almost a blatant way to talk about R. Assuming any 'issues' she thought i had most likely effected her feelings/reactions towards me.

We had a small talk about this concept of my moving out. She tells me based on lawyers message that it is best for the kids. I stated i wasn't quite sure and i saw no difference for the children if the children stayed in the house and she and i swapped locations (her staying at her mom's in non custody days, me at my dads). In addition, we have no financial solvency and i think it is a big risk to add additional expenses such as an apartment.

Going to my dad's tomorrow to drop off xmas presents. Will update him on our situation, see if he volunteers any help, such as a place to live several days a week. Might not be something he will agree to as we don't get along the best (at least, me and my step mom don't).

Friday is a customer's party i will be going to by myself. Wondering if i should spend the night somewhere....to be a little dark, make the wife wonder. Probably not a good idea, seems like it borders on manipulation.
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me 41 w43
married 20 years
BD 10/10/13 ILYBNILWY....
4 kids, 21,18,8,6


me 41 w43
married 20 years
BD 10/10/13 ILYBNILWY....
4 kids, 21,18,8,6