Moved Back from Overseas to Figure This Out...

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Well, I can only speak from my own experience.
The whole WAW and OM relationship is forced onto LBH. They may keep it hidden for awhile but somehow or rather the LBH knows. It won't be long when they would have a relationship openly when they do not consider their relationship as an affair.

In my sitch, I build up my own fantasy. I saw my WAW and OM was just friends although all clues says otherwise. Later, I fantasized that my situation will turn around every week as I thought it was just a fling. I had insomnia for many months and it is most likely attributed to my unwillingness to accept my sitch in the subconscious level. I am stuck.

I haven't reach that stage where I've let go completely so I can't tell you what it is like. What I have done is that I do not place any expectations anymore on my situation changing anytime soon or change at all. I have accepted the relationship as real and it actually liberates me. I have been getting more and more hours of sleep. With that comes detachment. Whatever WAW does or does not, do not effect me as much emotionally.

Think of it as this. You are in a diner. Your food was served on a plate. There's a lovely vase on your table.
If the waiter is to take away the vase, you wouldn't mind at all. Doesn't effect you. You just live with the fact that you can't see the lovely vase anymore. You do not attach yourself to the vase.
If the waiter is to take away your plate. You will react to it because it is your food. It effects you. You have attachment.
True letting to me means that I will see my situation as the vase and no longer as the plate of food.

I really hope that I made sense to you. I'm Asian so I tend to see things spiritually.