ya know- me too. i'd like more than anything to be able to see and KNOW that he "gets" wht he's done - FULLY & COMPLETELY.
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I want to tell him that he abandoned me - more than once - and left me for dead. I want to tell him he profoundly disrespected me and our 18 years together in his abusive words and actions. I want to tell him that I hate him, don't trust him and that crumbs are not enough to fix any of this. I want to tell him I miss the old him and my best friend, so much sometimes I still can't breathe.
i love the way you put it all. i'm here - dying my hair - decluttering this stupid house- hating my life pretty much. i hate to admit it out loud- but hell, withoutLOVE in my life- it feel ssoooooo empty every day. i am doing fine, gal, going out - will go over to friends tonite - keeping busy, etc. - allll the things i'm supposed to.
but like you- know what? it's not "enough" and i can't fix it and i can't get it back and i can't do one d@mn thing to help myself or my shattered life.
i like the "left for dead" - i sure feel like it . particularly today. this jerk doesn't call- i don't even really want to pick up- but i want to know he tried. i'd like to have thought that i was in his life enough that a stinkin ten minute phone call would occur to him. i'm sure he's with ow- they can ring in the new year - they can drop the heck dead - he can go HAVE her- and do and be whatever he wants or is.
i don't know this guy anymore- wish i could find old guy- think he's dead.
oh well- buszzer going- i'll just whine more.
happy nmer year- thanks for sharing- i guess i can do it- i know i'm in good company.
xxoo hope 2014 is a wonderful new beginning kind of year for us all-
