Rick, you make sense. I am not there yet. I plan on being me for a while yet. I think I need to. None of us knows what the future holds, but I know enough to be open to the possibilities. In the mean time I will be authentic and rebuild myself and my life.
Advina, I think, I and X’s extended family are trying to hold onto some of what was and we’ve managed reasonably well. The interaction over Christmas had high and low points. Sadly, I am not looking forward to next year. Life is fluid and changes dynamically so I cannot state how I’ll feel about participating next year. I’ll make the decision to participate or not when the time comes. Some of the family is authentic others not so much. I imagine this to be true for most everyone.
There was some X induced drama the day after Christmas (Boxing Day). It delayed dinner plans, but otherwise did not affect me even slightly. I watched it roll through family. I was a detached observer. Although it occurred to me to step in and attempt to modify the impact I did not.
Without going into detail X was checked into a hospital for observation. She presented in the ED with severe chest pain. She was released the next day. She told family she had very severe indigestion caused by an intestinal blockage that resolved itself overnight.
I’ve reserved a camp site for the RV this summer. I thought it best to get in ahead of the rush. With a little luck and planning I’ll cross another item off the bucket list.
BITS Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55 D 30 S 27
You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill
