You and your H sound like you are both growing and learning. Despite all the difficulties, that is a positive thing and I do hope that you make your way back to each other.
It takes time for emotions to heal. One big lesson that I have learned.
The separation in your case sounds like it has given you both the room to breathe and to take the pressure off. And just think, you get to date your H again!
Wishing you all the very best in the new year and hope to hear that you had a wonderful holiday season together.
