I am not looking forward to today at all One week ago I had the best day with H that I have had in years. Today, H will be out drinking in the city with his single friends ringing in the New Year. It hurts.
The boys and I are headed out to dinner with my best friends and their families. After, the boys and I will head home, have a slumber party and celebrate the new year together (although the boys wont make it to midnight).
Even though I am celebrating exactly how I want to given the circumstances, it is still so hard. I feel so far apart from H. H wants to stop by before heading out tonight to see the boys. Of course he does - spend a few minutes playing with the kids and head out with no responsibilities.
I am ready for today to be over and to wake up in 2014. A new start for myself and the boys. My boundaries are going back in place and my armor of protection is going back on.
One week ago I had the best day with H that I have had in years. Today, H will be out drinking in the city with his single friends ringing in the New Year. It hurts. 
