Hi everyone... I hope you all have a great New Year. I will be with a large group of kids from church and my D14. Should be a fun night.

It's been a rough couple of weeks but... I made it through and ready for a new year. I wont bore anyone with the details. Lets just say it was about me and my reaction to things found out. I am trying to get better at reacting to things, but of course we are not Vulcan and do have emotions...

I am learning how to forgive, it is a continual process. I thought I had forgiven and then something else would pop up and I felt like I was back at step one. I thought i was a bad person for not being able to forgive completely. What I have figured out is that I did forgive and then something else came up that hurt and I had to forgive for that as well. Like it says in the Bible Matthew 18:21-23.

21 Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, “Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother or sister who sins against me? Up to seven times?” 22 Jesus answered, “I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times. 23 “Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants.

How many times must I forgive? As many as it takes!!! Peter walked with Jesus and he struggled with forgiveness, so it's okay that I do as well. My ultimate goal is to forgive and have peace in my heart for my X, right now I still have some resentments.

Goals for 2014: I promised bug I would list some and I shall, I am going to list some goals and steps I am taking to achieve them. A marathon, a mustang, improved relationship skills and possible a trip to attend Essential Experiences I hear discussed on theses boards from time to time. I plan on putting these up by the end of the week.

Any way I hope everyone has a nice day, stay safe and get a cab...

You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.