Here's the big elephant in the room:
Quote:
me staying home and drinking nightly


Why were you doing that?

Have you addressed that? Quitting drinking is only about a 1/4 of the answer.

I see some people-pleasing happening, you want to make everyone feel OK. Would you agree?

Who is the real Scott?

I wrote a bunch here and decided it belongs on my thread not yours, cause it's about my journey.

I wish you well.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss