New to the site...

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So I allowed myself one full day to be pitiful and now it's time to get up and dust myself off. With the new year right around the corner I felt the need to pull out my journal. I don't want the new year to be the same. I've recognized some of the mistakes I've made, trying to fill in the gaps with rebound relationships, drinking and partying.. trying to get over the feelings of abandonment and low self esteem.. Classic behavior that I read about and vowed that I wouldn't induldge in (never say never). So I'm here at a tipping point of my life realizing that one, I don't want to be in a relationship right now. Two, I'd like to believe there is hope after being apart and now divorced, three that I've got to make necessary changes in order to have a lasting relationship with my ex or someone else... I said to myself that lunch was the worst thing that I could have done, but now I see that it could very well be the best... I'm glad I found this site when I did. I want to keep posting, reading, learning, and being inspired by everyone.

I would also like to believe that there is really hope for my sitch...I just want another opportunity to see him again, wondering if we'll ever talk again....idk one day at a time right?