Coming Back To Life

[BrightFuture]

It just occurred to me that H wanted the pictures of his family (brothers, sister and their kids), but didn’t ask for any pictures of my son. I guess, he has electronic once on his computer, but nothing recent.

I’m dying to find out if he brought somebody with him. I almost asked him, and then I thought to e-mails my friends at the vacation home with this question.

I keep remembering more things. It is just like I’m trying to find something that would tell me different than what I saw – no interest in me or anything. When H was carrying his stuff to the car, he left the door open and the dog went outside, like he thought that he was going on the trip in the car. He knows when I pack stuff the car, it means he is going on the trip. I called the dog and kind of joked that he was not going anywhere in this car this time. H said that he actually would not mind to take the dog with him. We all know that it was not going to happened, but it was interesting that he mentioned it.

Another thing was about his phone. He pulled the phone out to look at something, and I noticed that it was the old kind of phone he had before. At some point in the summer he mentioned that he got himself a smart phone, finally. So, I asked if that was that smart phone. He laughed and said no, it was a different phone. The smart phone happened to be not that smart, and it got the treatment some other electronic devices got before, meaning it was thrown on the floor or again the wall, or something like that. That was old H, throwing things when they didn’t work as he expected. He said that the phone didn’t show if there were missing calls or messages (this actually explains why he didn’t respond to my texts sometimes), and this why he didn’t want it anymore. This was typical H. He did this in the past with a few phones, and almost a couple of laptops. This was his anger coming out. So, I guess, he still has this anger, and it might have been worse at some point, because in the last few years before the BD he was trying to control this type of anger, and there were not too many things that got thrown or yanked out of place because H was frustrated. But he did it just recently.