Hi..I know most of you don't even know me..long history here..I feel bad that I don't get here often...
H is going to be moving back in the next month or so..things continue to go well..yet I have many mixed feelings..oh not aboout us and our m, I know in my heart, mind and soul that we are meant to be..I would not have been hanging on so long, if I did not believe that, it's just that I get a scared feeling that it won't last, or old ways will come back..or we will get tired, bored with each other. Minor things like, I have been used to sleeping alone..I come and go as I want..eat when I want..are these petty things to think about?? I know the answers..i don't to be whacked..I know the imporant things in life..
H does not have a job yet either, so I get frsutrated that he jsut sits around and watches tv..hope when he comes home, he will help a little more..but how do I say these things without judging or nagging?
So much work still to do, but I will say to anyone who read this and is in the beginning stages..do not give up hope..hang in there for the ride..but take care of you all the way.....I was finally at a place of such peace and comfort, that I was going to give h a d, if that is what he really wanted....and then I believe that our faith and belief in God, along with prayers turned his heart back to us..so hang in there
