Divorce on the table, Hoping for miracle

[paul19510]

I've actually been tempted to talk to my W who has been gone 4 weeks this week. But I haven't. I keep pleasant when we do have contact. I wrote a draft email and just keep revising it. I keep the TO line empty to avoid accidentally sending it. that helps me from 'scratching the itch". Maybe try that....

the only thing I did do was to tell W in a text that my day to day happiness was not her responsibility. I told her, if I handed that over to her, I was wrong. I also mentioned in a phone call recently about finances that I had failed to truly hear her on a number of occasions and was heart-fully sorry to understand that now. She cried and thanked me. Is that pursuit? maybe, but I believe she needed to know that I had come to realize these things.

Talking can take place in so many ways I guess. Tough call