I know I wasn't very db last night, but that is what happens when I get so emotional. Something I am trying very hard to work on.
Pud,
Frankly, I don't believe you.
In the last several weeks, you have had at least 3 R talks. You have said each time that you know you didn't DB well and that you are going to try to do better.
In this last statement, you qualify what you did as what happens when you get emotional. As if you can't control yourself.
A but...negates anything that comes before it and I absolutly hate buts...
You know exactly what you are doing...although I don't know if you really understand why...
If you look back over your M, a ton of the stuff that has happened that has created problems has been when you have been "emotional."
You need to stop letting that be an excuse and start owning your actions.
You can control yourself. You can work through your emotions, without sabotaging what you say you want, if you choose to...
Nothing in the last several R talks has done much to "wake" your H up.
If anything, you are solidifying his decision to be done by showing him that you really haven't changed at all.
It is still about your feelings and your agenda.
So my question to you is are you really interested in doing what you need to do to possibly save your M, or are you more interested in having your say regardless of the cost?
"Acceptance doesn't mean resignation. It means understanding that something is what it is and there's got to be a way through it."--Michael J. Fox
