Well..H said he wanted to file for divorce right away. Was in no hurry before so I could get benefits with his new job. We haven't have them in 10 years. H the proceed to tell me he hates me, wants it over and done. H will not make the same mistake and come back like last rime. Hates everything about me and can't stand to talk to me. He is pretty convincing this time. Last time at least there was some physical contact. Nothing this time. H started in on how I was bitch can't talk to him without starting a fight. He was already in a bad mood when he called.worked a long day. I didn't raise my voice or start anything H just kept saying I can't St talking to to you...... I did make a comment (I know shouldn't have) when he started in about how bad I made the marriage. I said you didn't have a drinking problem our whole marriage we wouldn't have had that issue either. H said there you go beating that into me again. I feel I don't have the strength to fight for this the 2nd time. H is so angry and all I see is black in his eyes.
M15 T19 D13 S13 BD Affair 9/13 S 11/13 D started 6/14.. dropped court date 10/14 H attorney can't get it together. Still with long distance ow. Still hates me.
