Thanks Lanzo. I am looking forward to an update from you. It seems like once you get to the divorce forum, things slow down.
It is still a roller coaster. My emotions go up and down. But, they don't seem to go anywhere near as low, and it doesn't last as long.
My W and I are not even speaking. I stopped answering her calls and texts. I hope this is not permanent, but I am done being treated so poorly. I just need some space and to be unavailable for a while. She has reacted with a lot of anger, but I am hoping it will give us a real break so we can start developing a new relationship.
But who knows, I have given up trying to predict/manage what is going on with my W. It is what it is, and she is driving the ship. I just want out of the way.
I went to a swing dance convention last night. Man, were the dancers talented. I was a little disappointed with my dancing. But, I need to remember that I just started again after a 15yr layoff. It is going to take some time to get my groove back on.
I danced several dances with one woman and we talked quite a bit. I had met her a few weeks ago. We talked about kids and divorce. She was coming on pretty heavy and for some reason she asked if I found any of the woman in the room attractive. I explained that I had not finalized my divorce and had to rebuild a life with my 3 girls. I was not going to be adding any other woman to the mix for a while.
I don't think it was the right answer, because I didn't see her again for the rest of the evening. She was nice, and I am sure I will be talk with her again.
I have been thinking a lot about woman. I continue to miss being married. I think part of it is jealousy, knowing that my wife has had multiple relationships and doesn't ever appear to be lonely. But who knows what she is really feeling. Being single seems safer right now.
