OMs, cycling, cakes and confusion Oh my Lord ;)

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I never really had bad feelings as far as the name change. This is only come up since the A, the realization that she doesnt respect me enough, is not invested I'm our family, and is telling everyone she had doubts. Thats kind of made me wonder if that was why there was never a name change.

However, I think I'm just angry at this point. I think the name change thing is me being a baby . Darn it, I want to be a baby and be petty sometimes! Does it always have to be her? Lol

On a more serious note, I don't want to get ahead of myself, she hasn't mentiond wanting to work on th marriage. I've been cautioned many times, especially hy the ladies here (adinva, 25years, sandi, gabbysmom etc..) that just because the A is over doesn't mean its back to our marriage she goes. Maybe she has other plans. Maybe she has someone else in mind. I honestly don't think so, but i don't want to be naiive and certainly don't want to have my heart broken again. Next time around I think I would turn into a monster! I don't want that.