I thought because the weather was nice outside, turning the heat off would save the propane. It just made sense to me. I am trying to hoard right now. I'm even afraid to buy the esthetician equipment in case I need the money... I hate debt. I don't feel comfortable with it.
I will be going into debt by getting an attorney. That just terrifies me. This was one of the reasons I couldn't do finances with my husband.
If I wrote a check for 500.00, I would break out in a sweat! At one time when we first bought this home, the monthly payment was close to six thousand! I thought that was unaffordable, but he had no problem with it.
He also handled projections, and commissions so large numbers didn't have the same affect on him as I.
Yes anxiety played a major factor in my marriage, I had a lot of baggage. I also see that my husband has passive aggressive tendencies as well. He was a punisher, so I'm not looking forward to any negotiations. I just want it to go smoothly and let him go.
I hate being referred to as an anchor, it really hurts. I also don't want my youngest hurt by this. The law does not require him to pay her school, nor her expenses. It does require them to pay my support.
I don't want that to interfere with our relationship. I have been as open as I can with her, and I have given her plenty of warning. I want to do the same for my first born, but I don't trust her maturity. She will take sides if he starts complaining to her down the road.
I want her to be safe, but he has enabled her helplessness for such a long time now. I would take her in, but it would be doing the same, and she really is emotionally combative at present.
What a mess I've contributed to all of our lives. I also hate groveling to my eighty something parents. I don't want them stressing, and I don't like being needy or in need. This is soul crushing.
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
