Bet you guys wonder why I have so much time here!!!H is coming later to do taxes...
T2--you are right about the faith...it has sustained me through these past years..and i have grown stronger because of it and my determination to not let this take my life away..to be able to keep moving forward...and this coming from someone who has had a rather low selfesteem..and pesimistic outlook. I do realize that h telling me all this is not what everyone recieves through this..and I am truly blessed..but then I knew he was special 25 years ago...
Wonder...It is so much easier to try and rid the mind and body of all the hate and anger..I am sure there is hurt somewher..maybe I have it buried..I am not sure..but with time ..it will fade..
LL...I was going to say that you have to let go of your twisted gut feeling that maybe your h had a pa..but I can't judge that feeling...it is real for you..I do look back with my h, and see that he had guilt..around me...that is why he did not come around too much..or was distant when he did see me...this is how I see it..Not all s are guilt ridden in the same ways...if you have no other reasons or proof that it was nothing more than an ea..then you have to work through those feelings..sounds so easy...I know it is not. I know you have struggled since he came back with issues..feelings..if he is openly willing to talk about them over and over, then that is good..I think I read that in the DR adultry chapter..I also took the book over to h last night and asked him to read that chapter..as it gave him tips about what comes next..
Marc..are you new around here??Welcome..you ask a good question..the answer is absolutely, for me, I want to know..every detail if I ask... Since I don't know your sitch..I take it she' not in the home? Even if she did have someone else..you can still decide if the m is worth waiting for...do you have the patience for it..could you forgive her.. I forgot to mention, that my h has not been with ff since just about the time he moved out..Nov.02..she found some other guy that was not m..and has money and gives her 24/7 attention..so his process without her started then...and he was still very distant with me..so I let him be.. I don't know how I would react if he told me he had just broken it off with her..knowing her sitch..I kinda knew that he was not with her...and really did not think he was with anyone else either...but it has taken him over a year, to work through it and face the truth. Had he not come clean about her..and since I suspected something several years ago..it would have been a wall between us.. would have wondered and that reaction would show through in the r..becasue for the first couple years..it was like that.. he said it was friends..now at least I have heard the truth from him.. Fill me in where to read your story...
