Well I got a few more boxes packed. Mostly the bathroom stuff and a few things off the walls. I'm shaky. Anxious. Kinda sick.
I love my W as much as ever. I believe we have a good chance of our marriage working. It's up to her and her time. Our issues are solvable. Maybe we both needed a break and space. I know what to do and how to be. Mostly a case of being how I used to be. It's up to her.
Her decision to see OM messed it up. I know nothing about their relationship and don't care to. MIL was the one to tell me he was moving there and we needed to do something. (W refused to see me or talk.) And W talked about him some. MIL asked a few questions. He's nearly 10 years older than her, 5 year old daughter. There's some similarities to me. Art, guitars, similar tattoo, I wanted a daughter...weird. MIL said W won't be able to deal with him having a kid and the age difference. She told me to be patient, it won't work or last long. She may be right and she knows her daughter. They are close but this whole situation but a strain on them.
W not wanting to talk to me or anyone else about us doesn't seem like a good sign. I just don't know. But I will continue reading and working on myself anyway.
I'm going to send the text to her soon about insurance, money, etc. See how that goes. I have to do it. I feel like I need to. The NC will be broken but after I tell her I don't think we'll be talking. She did text me Christmas saying, "Merry Christmas. I hope that you are well." There's a text every few days. The one before that was asking for money. Idk
