I don't think H is trying to do anything hurtful to me deliberately ... just being MLC dumb. He tells me a lot about what he is doing and I always tell him I hope he enjoys dinner, or his evening or the trip for New Year's. Yuck!! What I really want to say is I hope you have a miserable time and start to figure out that you don't belong over there! I know I need to focus on the positives of the situation. At least now we are communicating rationally.
My biggest concern about going out on New Year's Eve is driving home late at night by myself. I could find someone to drive me to and from, but I would then be kind of stuck if I wanted to leave earlier than my chauffeur.
You know, the ironic thing about all of this is that we rarely went out on New Year's Eve. H always called it amateur night and said he didn't want to be on the road with a bunch of folks who were all driving drunk at the same time. We occasionally had friends over, but mostly just celebrated alone (in the tub).
I think I will cook one of my favorite meals, open a bottle of my favorite wine, do some research on an awesome trip for myself this summer (so I can start a savings fund) and then at midnight toast the end of one crappy year and the start of a new one with new beginnings.
In the meantime, I realize that I am losing sight of the small baby steps that have occurred over the past 4 to 6 weeks, so I am going to pull out my list and evaluate. Hopefully, that will get me out of this funk!
Me: 59 and holding H: :53 Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown M: 19 T: 23 BD: 9-23-2013
