A twist on cake-eating & dropping a bomb of my own

[2Times2Many]

Thanks Heather and AJ. I needed to hear that. I am so glad I can come here for a boost when I need it.

I was in such a good place ... don't quite know what happened. Maybe the holidays?? Maybe indulging in a little self pity party? Or maybe the big move with the operation over there which will allow greater production. I'm not sure how I feel about the progress. Each success will lead h to want to expand more and that will lead to more time away from home. It's like there is no end in sight and I think that is what has me down. I don't feel like I am competing with an OW as much as this stupid operation ... I don't know how to deal with that. It's like that operation is the real mistress.

In some ways, I want him to achieve his goals there for his own sake, but in other ways I want the operation to fail because he will no longer have a reason to practically live over there. (Our business here does not need that operation in order to continue to operate profitably.)

I suppose it is good he tells me what he's doing socially. A couple of months ago he told me nothing along those lines. Some of the secrecy is falling to the wayside I suppose.

I know that the social stuff is his way of trying to make living there tolerable, but I am beginning to suspect that his social life is not as fulfilling as it once was. He told me he had dinner with the buddy he's traveling with for the New Year's thing and he said dinner was quiet and kind of boring. Sorry for him ... but glad he's apparently finding disappointment with some of the things he thought was making him so happy over there.

It is so hard to db from so far away with only a few days every month when he is actually around. I don't think, based on his behavior toward me, that the ow is much of a factor anymore, if it all. My biggest challenge is db'ing when the OW is not necessarily a person, but a business plan. I suppose the theory, especially when dealing with MLC, is the same ... just hard to wrap my head around how to deal with it.

Sounds like it's time to pull out DR (again) to reignite my inspiration and resolve.

I am truly thankful for this forum and everyone who has helped me cope.