Livnlearn,

thanks for your thoughts...yes there definitely was a ow in the pic that I accept and h admits to as much. He however doesn't admit to it ever getting physical..."it just never happend" he does admit to wanting to...I'm torn with believing him and not. It's keeping me from being comfortable with him.

I have just posted to the thread that pib started for me with the same feelings so as not to fill up sue's thread with my negative jibe.

Sue,

I am sooooooo happy for you!! however...don't let go of the you that you've discovered through all of this..continue on your path of self discovery and let the r with h work it's way into your life. Keep in mind that a good m is the meshing of two healthy full people.

LL