Thanks TVS. Yes, we did have a nice Christmas with our families. And W is still here, and I believe doing the best she can. I can't quit now.

But I still struggle for periods every week. Will she ever recommit to being my lover? Will it take longer than I'm willing to wait?

I do miss the closeness we had, which has been gone now for 2 years.

I had a nice night out with friends tonight. Lots of laughing.

Oh, and earlier today W asked if I wanted to join her at a birthday party for one of her girl friend / coworkers next Saturday. Surprised the heck out of me... I thought I was cooties!

M: A really long time.
Crisis: 5 years.
She's still worth it.

Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl