A twist on cake-eating & dropping a bomb of my own

[AJM]

It's difficult to be inside your own head, isn't it? Distance is difficult and when things aren't well, it's even harder.

You're right to want to be talked off the ledge though. You don't know he's being inconsiderate. In fact, him telling you is more considerate than I would have expected. He's hoping that by telling you he can be trusted. I know it may not work that way, but..

As for the feelings. You may be being played. You may not. You can't tell at this point. So... you have a choice. You can believe either way at this point. You can believe you are and be pi**ed, or you can believe not with the idea that you can deal with it later if you are. That's just pride anyway. If you decide you are being played, you won't get the chance to see otherwise though.

As for him partying while you are at home waiting by the phone...why? Why don't you go out with some friends and have a blast? Ring in the new year with friends and family? What's stopping you?

Not sure I talked you down or loaded the gun, but hope it helps either way.

AJ