Scott,

I pray to god my gut is wrong but I'm having flashbacks reading your stitch. I am strongly advising you to start a journal. Begin with the date and time and just start writing...even if it's just a sentence. Please do this- you will realize why one year from now.

Go to the gym - this needs to be a commitment you make to yourself. I also suggest you come up with a few goals for yourself that you control 100% of the outcome......3 months or 6 months. You are going thru so much emotional hell right now ..the depths you can't feel because you are trying to keep your head up.

Are you taking a multi vitamin? Do it.

I came on tonight to just check in on you. I wish I could be there for you right now because very soon you will need to make the decision to blow [censored] up or become superman.

Please think about my suggestions.....i want you to be superman!


ME 38 W 37
T18 M5
D3
BD 1/7/13
PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing
2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13
W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13
First mediation appt 12/19/13