I pray to god my gut is wrong but I'm having flashbacks reading your stitch. I am strongly advising you to start a journal. Begin with the date and time and just start writing...even if it's just a sentence. Please do this- you will realize why one year from now.
Go to the gym - this needs to be a commitment you make to yourself. I also suggest you come up with a few goals for yourself that you control 100% of the outcome......3 months or 6 months. You are going thru so much emotional hell right now ..the depths you can't feel because you are trying to keep your head up.
Are you taking a multi vitamin? Do it.
I came on tonight to just check in on you. I wish I could be there for you right now because very soon you will need to make the decision to blow [censored] up or become superman.
Please think about my suggestions.....i want you to be superman!
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13