H left 2 days before Christmas, won't be here for New Year's and won't be here for our anniversary on the 6th.
He told me today about traveling to another city in India to celebrate New Year's with his buddy and friends. A three day affair. While I am sitting here alone. I am so down ... I just can't get out of my head that I'm here alone and he is partying.
He also called today and said he might not be able to text or call tomorrow (Sunday - when he is off) because he will very busy.
I am beginning to think that he thinks he has "stopped the runaway train" here and can continue with his antics over there.
I want so much to break character and tell him he is being an inconsiderate jerk. I don't think I can keep this up.
I feel like I am being made a fool so he can pursue his "dream" of building that business over there while he just plays me along to keep me pacified.
Someone, please talk me down. I am in a very bad place right now and want to tell him to [censored] off.
Help!
Me: 59 and holding H: :53 Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown M: 19 T: 23 BD: 9-23-2013
