Finding nuggets of gold on this Great Big Hill

[Pudmuddle]

Hi all, thanks for the kind words. Some days feel better than others, I'm trying to take things in stride, but it is still very difficult for me.

Like today, I slept like a log last night and had some funky dreams. They were mostly about my H and him telling me things that I didn't want to hear. I can't remember them now, thank goodness, but those types of dreams always affect me for the rest of the day so the mood is a bit down today.

uR, you are not nitpicking at all. In fact, you always pick up on the very things that I question myself on too. I think I kept asking him about the movie because it was so out of character for him to not want to do that. I still have a hard time with seeing the things with him that are out of character, because for most of the time he seems so 'normal'. I have to keep reminding myself he is not in a good way right now, at least one that I can understand, even he does appear normal.

I need to remind myself to let him be heard and show him I hear him. I guess that means to let things go, that I seem to want to push. I don't want this depressed man.