Came back home and she was up and getting ready to go eat with BFF. That's positive. Negative is that she was still crying. She almost completely lost it when she looked at me. I couldn't help myself. I went to hug her and told her to just let me do it. I know she didn't want that, but I wanted it and couldn't let her suffer any longer in front of me. I didn't say anything, just held her for a minute and went in about my business.
I am afraid for her. I think she may be reaching a breaking point. She cannot escape anymore. I won't go away. I won't allow her to provoke me. I am still here and taking care of things. I seem happy to her. I am handling the boys and the house. Her behavior today scares me. I have seen tears exactly one time since BD before today. She needs help. She needs compassionate, intelligent, understanding people like the ones I have found here to help her understand what is happening.
I wish DB community could fix everyone the way it is fixing me.
Both 40 T-22 M-18 S13 S11
Bomb, ILYBINILWY-7/10/13 EA #1-confirmed 7/10/13, ongoing since 5/13 EA #2-9/13/13
