I just wanted to throw a good luck with your future vague "calculated risk". I truly hope it works out the way you are hoping it will.
I do think its a good idea, to test the waters a bit.
Even after all you've been thru, the years of work you've put in, the patience you've shown, the no expectations. You've earned a your shot at happiness.
Your posts are truly inspirational to what the process can do.
