First I say yes to watching the boys so she can go out New Years Eve, now tonight she come's home after a late night of work 9:00pm and asks if Im going out tonight and If not, was okay if she went to her girlfriends house for awhile. She said she know's its already late but wants to get out for a bit because it been awhile since she's done anything. Which is true. I dont think she's been out with anyone but family since BD 2 months ago. I said no I didnt have any plans and thats fine.
Then It felt like my heart just sunk into my stomach. I guess I feel bad because this is not like her to go out so late especially after working a 12 hour day, and having to work first thing tomorrow morning.
She also had to throw out that I could have the bed and she'd take the blow up mattress, as she didnt know how late she would be and she's waking up early in the morning. (I wanted to say how thoughtful of you, but I just said okay)
I know Im not detached yet, but Im feel im getting there, and trying really really hard. I find It very difficult for me talk or say ANYTHING to WAS and when I do it doesn't feel natural to me. She talks to me like everything is just fine in her world (which I guess It is)
Now to be completely honest, she hasnt gone anywhere since in the month I've moved back home and I've gone out 2 night with friends, workout in the evening and sunday morning, and a few clothes shopping trips.
Im trying not to let it bother me, and the more I type the better Im starting to feel. I just need to vent for a few.
Me: 39 W: 33 M: 9 years T: 10 years S7 S10 BD 10/19/13 W Filed 11/25/13 EA Confirmed 2/2/14 (no evidence of PA) WAW moved out 3/15/14
