As for your feeling insecure, hon I believe thats normal. Afterall, your mind set was on moving forward with or without H.
Just don't go back to more of the same behavior. Keep DBing and make the changes in you stay. As most say, you're work is just beginning. So roll up your sleeves!
I'm so happy for you! {{{{hoping}}}}
Please come back and keep us posted we are dying to hear more! LOL